“When you can’t find the light
That guides you through a cloudy day
When the stars ain’t shinin’ bright
You feel like you’ve lost you’re way
When the candle light of home
Burns so very far away
Well, you got to let your soul shine
Just like my daddy used to say”-

“He used to say soulshine
It’s better than sunshine
It’s better than moonshine
Damn sure better than rain
Hey now people, don’t mind
We all get this way sometime
Got to let your soul shine, shine till the break of day”

-Soul Shine-Warren Haynes , Beth Hart Version

This song was introduced to me last week while attending Arthur Findlay College in Stansted England while taking the course “The Modern Medium”.   I hadn’t realized it at the time, but just like most things that happen to me, I now know that it wasn’t by accident.  This song now represents my entire week spent at the school.  I started the week off wanting to learn all the mechanical aspects of making my mediumship better.  I ended the week a totally different person who just went through an entire week of self discovery.  What I thought I needed to make my mediumship better wasn’t what I needed at all.  They say when the student is ready the teacher will appear.  Well, they have.  Last year at the college I  studied under Jackie Wright.  It was the most incredible foundation of mediumship I could have asked for.  I will never forget her and the influence she has had on me.  I have a solid foundation, or as she would put it, “Tracey your roots are strong”.  My intentions this year was to go back and build on that foundation.  Once I arrived at the College I was placed in John Johnsons group.  I had no idea at the time, but he was the tutor my soul needed.  Instead of spending the next week on the mechanics of mediumship, we went through a journey of self discovery. “To be a good medium, you must first know yourself”, he would explain.  “The things that are wrong in your mediumship, are truly things that are wrong within yourself.”  “You must do your soul work, then your mediumship will come and be the best it could possibly be”. You see, how can I bring the essence of the spirit world  alive if I have shut off my emotions and built walls due to my own life traumas?  How can I bring Heaven to Earth if I lack confidence in myself?  How can I give a voice to the voiceless if I cant voice my own opinions because of my insecurities and fear?  And so began our soul work.  Eleven of us put together in this class of self discovery. To say there were a lot of tears over the week would be an understatement. By the end of the week we would sit in front of the class and be vulnerable and raw and speak of the things we were not proud of about ourselves, the things we were proud of , the things we never told about ourselves. We would all be forever changed.   We all let our Soul Shine.

During this process of self discovery there were a few ah-ha moments that I learned about myself.  I can now pin-point when the spirit world drew close to me when I suffered some child hood trauma.  I know they walked through life by my side always protecting me while I got some things out of my system.  At the time I felt the least loved in the world and questioned my own existence and desperately cried out for my own identity is the exact moment they embraced me and started preparing me for this journey.  It has taken over ten years to get to this exact moment in my life, but I can now see how and why everything has happened the way that it has in order to get me here. Everything is exactly how it should be.   All the dots are finally connecting.

I am often asked, why would you want to be a Medium?  I finally have my answer.  I don’t “want” to be a Medium.  I am a Medium.  It is what makes my soul shine. This is who I am.  This is the reason I exist.  I am here to bring Heaven to Earth.  To give a voice to the voiceless.  To capture the essence of their soul so they too have a chance to let their soul shine once again.

“Oh, it’s better than sunshine
It’s better than moonshine
Damn sure better than rain
Yeah, now people don’t mind
We all feel this way sometimes
Gotta let your soul shine, shine till the break of day”

I am a Medium.