The Climb

The Climb

A part of my great adventure this month was having the pleasure to visit Ireland. Coming off an emotional week in England where I was knee deep in 24/7 mediumship and self recognition, it was really hard to go to such a beautiful country and not be reflective.  In fact even just the color of the country had me mesmorized in the beauty this world holds.  During my stay in Ireland I visited MANY beautiful places and took MANY beautiful pictures and each one touched me in one way or another.  It is really hard to explain but my soul was doing some major transformation on this trip.  I have never felt closer to God, the spirit world, and myself.  No hint of anxiety, depression, or worry.  Just me and the beauty that surrounded me.  I had many conversations with myslef and I am sure my spirit team helped to facilitate some of that.  There were some things I needed my soul to hear and through that has come some incredible growth.  Since this blog is about my mediumship journey, let me share with you the magical experiences I had and the revelations that came to me through the incredible sites of Northern Ireland.

Day 2 of my stay we went to Cavehill to hike.  If you take a look at the top picture you can see the pathway of this “climb”.  Looks simple right?  HECK TO THE NO!  That was far from a simple climb for a girl from Little Elm, Texas with no regular hiking regim.  I remember looking up from the bottom of the hill and telling myself there is NO WAY i can get to the top.  Now, do you see what I just did right there?  I told myself it couldnt be done before I even started.  Self sabatoge?  Yes!  Exactly what I have done my entire adult life.  So do you think that may have an effect on my mediumship?  You betcha!  And this was the exact conversation that I was having with myself.  Then I remembered a song that I had heard back when I was at the mediumship college in England. At the time I heard it, it stuck with me but I wasn’t really sure why.  I ended up downloading it and wouldn’t ya know… was exactly what I needed to hear as I faced this “HILL” literally AND in my mediumship.

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there’s a voice inside my head saying
You’ll never reach it
Every step I’m taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high
There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb
The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I’m not breaking……
After reflecting and remembering those lyrics I decided to put those words into action. Instead of focusing on the end result, I just needed to focus on the present and take one step at a time.  And so I did. One step at a time, one foot in front of the other, never looking beyond each step and eventually through hard work, some struggle, and a few breaks, I MADE IT TO THE TOP!  So if I can do that for the “literal” mountain, then I need to do the exact same thing for my “mediumship” mountain. Stop focusing on the end result, stop worrying about whats nexts, stop trying to race to the top.  Instead just enjoy the journey of the climb.

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

‘Cause there’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose

Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb…….

In closing, as I had mentioned at the beginning of this post that there were MANY experiences that I had in Ireland and MANY pictures taken.  The second picture above was taken at Rope Bridge. It too has a special meaning to me because it really captures the essence of  “trust”. And like many other experiences, I know it was no accident that this photo was captured and that I was there to walk across it.  It was a very much needed lesson for me on this trip.  Like I needed to trust the bridge would hold me and not let me fall, I also needed to trust spirit in my mediumship.  It is the single thing that is holding me back and I needed desperately to be reminded that they will forever have my back and carry me through and not let me fall.  It amazes me everyday just how intellegent the spirit world is and if you take the time to connect the dots you can just see the magic in it all.  Feeling so very very blessed.

Soul Shine



“When you can’t find the light
That guides you through a cloudy day
When the stars ain’t shinin’ bright
You feel like you’ve lost you’re way
When the candle light of home
Burns so very far away
Well, you got to let your soul shine
Just like my daddy used to say”-

“He used to say soulshine
It’s better than sunshine
It’s better than moonshine
Damn sure better than rain
Hey now people, don’t mind
We all get this way sometime
Got to let your soul shine, shine till the break of day”

-Soul Shine-Warren Haynes , Beth Hart Version

This song was introduced to me last week while attending Arthur Findlay College in Stansted England while taking the course “The Modern Medium”.   I hadn’t realized it at the time, but just like most things that happen to me, I now know that it wasn’t by accident.  This song now represents my entire week spent at the school.  I started the week off wanting to learn all the mechanical aspects of making my mediumship better.  I ended the week a totally different person who just went through an entire week of self discovery.  What I thought I needed to make my mediumship better wasn’t what I needed at all.  They say when the student is ready the teacher will appear.  Well, they have.  Last year at the college I  studied under Jackie Wright.  It was the most incredible foundation of mediumship I could have asked for.  I will never forget her and the influence she has had on me.  I have a solid foundation, or as she would put it, “Tracey your roots are strong”.  My intentions this year was to go back and build on that foundation.  Once I arrived at the College I was placed in John Johnsons group.  I had no idea at the time, but he was the tutor my soul needed.  Instead of spending the next week on the mechanics of mediumship, we went through a journey of self discovery. “To be a good medium, you must first know yourself”, he would explain.  “The things that are wrong in your mediumship, are truly things that are wrong within yourself.”  “You must do your soul work, then your mediumship will come and be the best it could possibly be”. You see, how can I bring the essence of the spirit world  alive if I have shut off my emotions and built walls due to my own life traumas?  How can I bring Heaven to Earth if I lack confidence in myself?  How can I give a voice to the voiceless if I cant voice my own opinions because of my insecurities and fear?  And so began our soul work.  Eleven of us put together in this class of self discovery. To say there were a lot of tears over the week would be an understatement. By the end of the week we would sit in front of the class and be vulnerable and raw and speak of the things we were not proud of about ourselves, the things we were proud of , the things we never told about ourselves. We would all be forever changed.   We all let our Soul Shine.

During this process of self discovery there were a few ah-ha moments that I learned about myself.  I can now pin-point when the spirit world drew close to me when I suffered some child hood trauma.  I know they walked through life by my side always protecting me while I got some things out of my system.  At the time I felt the least loved in the world and questioned my own existence and desperately cried out for my own identity is the exact moment they embraced me and started preparing me for this journey.  It has taken over ten years to get to this exact moment in my life, but I can now see how and why everything has happened the way that it has in order to get me here. Everything is exactly how it should be.   All the dots are finally connecting.

I am often asked, why would you want to be a Medium?  I finally have my answer.  I don’t “want” to be a Medium.  I am a Medium.  It is what makes my soul shine. This is who I am.  This is the reason I exist.  I am here to bring Heaven to Earth.  To give a voice to the voiceless.  To capture the essence of their soul so they too have a chance to let their soul shine once again.

“Oh, it’s better than sunshine
It’s better than moonshine
Damn sure better than rain
Yeah, now people don’t mind
We all feel this way sometimes
Gotta let your soul shine, shine till the break of day”

I am a Medium.